I have worked everyday for the past two weeks and I am absolutely loving it. However, I have been so stressed because state practicles for a firefighting class I have been taking was supposed to be this coming Saturday, Tuesday, and Thursday and I didn't know if I could get off work or if I would pass.. but thankfully they have been postponed until July 11 at the earliest.

I really miss Todd. Everything I do reminds me of him. blah. He was sooo amazing at every aspect except controlling his anger. He really would have been the perfect man if he could just control his anger better and be more understanding of things. He was the one that took me to Purdue and showed me so this next year will be hard now that we are no longer talking. I was just cleaning out my email and last week he emailed me and told me that he hoped I remembered him everytime I walked to class and sent me pictures of me and him by the main fountain. ugh.. why do I let him get to me so much?

Today at work will be slow because I'm working at the store beside the lake. Pretty much all of our customers are coming or going to the lake so it really sucks when it rains and that's excactly what it is doing right now...

oo.. and my little sister accidently gave me a busted lip.. i'll post pics..

<3 Courtney

GOOD NEWS!

-I am home from work! Finally.

-I have two jobs and a steady income.

- I am going to college next year.

- I have all my credit cards paid off with the exception of my Victorias Secret one

-I finally got approved for a Victorias secret credit card.

- I am caught up on all of my bills

- I am hopefully going to have an awesome freakin party at my house this weekend!

BAD NEWS :(

-I have to work tomorrow... and the next day.. and the day after.. who even knows when I will have another day off.

- I have to call in to wal-mart twice next week so I can work at my other job.

- I need to get some work done on my car before college.

-I might not be able to take my car to college.

- I haven't been saving money very well.

- I think I've sorta became a whore.. although I really havent.. I just don't have a solid relationship like I might like..

After Graduation

It's only been a little over a week now but I honestly have not even fully realized that I graduated. With college coming in August I'm not out of school and it doesn't feel as different as I expected. I am still trying to get a second job but I am not having much luck so I pretty much just gave up on it and asked Wal-Mart for more hours. Who knows if they will give them to me of not.

Todd

We barely ever talk except thru texting.. after exploding on me and telling me he wants me dead he realized that he made a mistake and wants me back. hmm wow... he really loves me and can't go on without me... I'm trying hard not to give in.

Finances

Haha I've been broke.. I am trying to pay down all of my debt so that I can start off fresh in college... Right now I have $10 in the bank and I just realized the Guinea pigs need more food and bedding so I'm about to have 0. lol I don't get paid for 2 more weeks but my car is on full so I think I should be okay for a few more days.

Firefighting

No fires lately but I have been on a couple of first responder runs.. not too bad but since I'm not a first responder I can't really do anything cept lift assist and get the EMTs what they tell me they need. Last night was soo much fun tho. We do this thing called Crusade for Children and it's a big competition among fire depts to see who can raise the most money. In the midst of things something has been invented called the firefighter games which go on once a year for about 3 weeks. So last night we went and bought 6 dozen eggs and pulled up at another fire station with blue lights on and just unloaded on them.. we were in a jeep with the top off and there was another truck that was with us.. we drove by about 4 times doing this and then they got out their hozes and soaked us.. after that we called truths and next week we are all ganging up and going to get another fire dept... sooo much fun and I definatly can not wait.

College

A lot of pepole have been asking where I'm going. I decided on Purdue University in West Lafayette, Indiana. Although I have been really excited lately I found out yesterday that I don't get to live in a dorm but instead I have to live in an apartment. It sorta sucks but I will have 2 other roomates and the apts are on campus so Idk.. should be an okay time. I have a stove and a fridge which will be nice things to have :) however, if you live in these apartments you are not required to purchase a meal plan which is an extra $4000 a year.. Since I didnt pick the apts as one of my options I didn't know this and I signed up for a meal plan... now they won't let me out of it so although I have a stove and fridge.. I'm still going to have to waste $4000 a year.. good times huh?